Reposting an old journal - Remembering the goodness of God
I woke up at 3:30 am today to take Mark and Debbie to the airport. For the past few days, I’ve had different impressions or voices telling me different things, which I will share more later. This morning at 3:30 am, I am not sure if I was awake or still sleeping because I only lay down for 3 hours; I heard a voice saying to me, “I’ll give you two “F” words – Fascinate and Focus.” Ok…I’ve been hearing these two words for the past few days; what’s special about that? But I’ve realized that God wants me to keep being fascinated by Him and focus on Him from now on.
And here are the stories of what happened this past weekend.
Friday, April 4
I woke up thinking about that woman with 12 years of blood disease in the Bible; I want to touch Jesus just like her. I want Jesus to say to me, “Somebody touched Me, for I perceived power going out from Me.”
Did I enjoy putting together a joint conference? hmm…My prayer was that ALL young people get to encounter Jesus, no matter which church they are from. God saw it all; He is faithful till the end. Good worship by Radical Jam. Nice introduction, sharing, and reminder of God’s love by Mark; personally, I was very touched when Mark Hendrickson talked about walking to Him, not away from Him, because just a few days ago, I felt that I was walking away from Him although I didn’t notice it. Of course, tears were streaming down as I felt His love; it was a good reminder for me.
Saturday, April 5
I was supposed to teach at an art school on Sat. morning, but I decided to come to the meeting. I was a little sad that no young people from other churches showed up, but only Impact kids. Why God? As we walked in and settled down, Tina began to read the verses, but to me I just wanted to cry out to God for the young people. The worship was awesome! At Impact, we never did something like this before; over one hour of free worship and singing in the spirit, we could only do it for 20-30 minutes sometimes. But this morning God just took over, and everyone was engaged in worshipping God so freely. Sarah led the worship along with Johnny and Annie; they began to sing in the spirit. Many good lines were flowing in the melody, and the lyrics touched me deeply. “It is God. He is here.” I felt it so strongly in my heart. I knelt and began to weep, not because of the young people anymore but because of His love and strong presence. Tears were coming down non-stop; I love it when God messes me up. I kept asking for more of His love and His mercy; all of a sudden I saw a picture of Jesus playing with the baby blocks with me. In the vision, I was a baby sitting by Jesus. He picked up a baby block and showed me how to stack it on top of another; He was teaching me how to lay down the blocks. There were many of the blocks, but only a few of them were stacked on top of one another.
After that, in another vision, I saw a beautiful shiny sword decorated with a large red gemstone or a ruby along with many other gems or some sort. I asked God what it was for, but He said, “Pick it up and use it.”, instantly I received a word – authority. I felt that I needed to open my eyes, looking to my left; all of a sudden I saw two angels standing right against the wall waiting. I immediately closed my eyes, and the sword came back to me again. Then a voice said, use the sword to command the angels to minister to these young people. So I hesitantly pulled the sword out and said, “In Jesus’ name, I… gerr…command you to minister to these people here.” With much faith I said it again and again; immediately some people came forward and knelt down crying before God. Later I realized that the angels were waiting for the command to minister to God’s people, as Mark Hendrickson shared a similar story of what happened to their friend. There is the confirmation.
Many were touched by God this morning. I was overwhelmed with His presence. But here is the coolest thing: at the end of the evening session at the same spot where the angels appeared, Jennifer found feathers that were not there earlier. That strengthens our faith in God once again with another confirmation! What a day of encounter, eh?
Sunday, April 6
“Where is my gemstone?”
Awesome worship @ Impact! Love the Fire Tunnel. First time @ Triumphant on Sunday. Share more later… (to be continued…)